Seize the moment, they say.

It's always painful to let things come out.

I've become someone who hides everything pretty well, but at some point I can't help it and things must get out of my chest in order to keep my own sanity.
It's all about balance. As much as I shouldn't let my mundane life affects me this much, I'm a human being and the heaviness of feelings hits hard.


How to let go?
Will I ever understand that we're not really able to build things that last forever?

I might be a hell of a dreamer.
I mean, I am. I know. That's not something that fits the society nowadays. And the hardest part is understanding that nothing will ever be the way I wish it was.
I understand. I really do. But understanding and accepting are things that run in opposite directions.

It's an overwhelming feeling.
I should trust fate. But I don't even believe it, to be honest. We're here, all together, and our actions are the ones building what happens in our lives later on. Every word, every action, it builds who you are and your options.

Seize the moment, they say.
But how to do so? I mean... You're going through hell, and there's this little piece of heaven right there. And knowing this heaven s about to be in the end... How would you feel?
It will be taken from you.
No, not saying it belongs to me. Not at all. Nope. In any case whatsoever. But you can't deny that's it's there for you when you need the most. Makes you forget the heaviness, makes the time shut off for a while.

I may be holding too hard into something it's not supposed to be held.