04/05:
You asked me to explain why did I felt you as a "deep, dark, still lake"...
Well, it's been 2 hours I'm facing this page trying to let it out. Not happening so far.
Whatever (whenever) I write down here, it's not more than a merely thanks and a "shallow" explanation. This is definitely not a love letter or whatever you want to name it. So, no need to freak out over this little piece of paper.
No drama.
No bullshit.
06/05:
Don't get me wrong, and don't get full of yourself with what I'm about to say. We pass through people's lives, when we leave, we leave something for them. Maybe just nice memories, lessons, or even a part of ourselves in few cases. I'm not sure which case would be applicable once you're gone, but I will find out at some point.
I was really fucked up when we've met.
I mean, really, deeply fucked up. I was a completely mess, and I'm not ashamed about it.
Besides making me a stoner (haha, jokes aside), you made me realize a lot about who I am. That's not so directly connected to the YOU as a person, but somehow I found my answers here and there. Somehow I could see myself and all my shit from a different perspective, through your eyes I say.
I always, since the very first time, had good times with you. And to be really honest here, it helped me a lot to actually let go of things I know I would be fighting over until this very day. Call me dumb, or... whatever you want, but damn! You helped me a lot so far. In different ways.
To name a thing, that I find very important - perhaps the most important one, you got me even closer to my spirituality, that was asleep for couple of years. Influence, maybe? Well, I'm not even close to your practices, and maybe will never walk the same path as you... But meeting you back in November, was crucial for me to slowly get back.
And I'm honestly thankful for it.
Anyhow, back to the explanation, making it as simple as possible: unknowingly, you helped me go through some ghosts of mine. And to be very honest with you, babe, I realized that not long ago. That's why the lake. An isolated and peaceful lake in the middle of the chaos I was facing back then. More than anything, I love the person I am when I'm around you, and this proves to myself that every single word I've said to you so far is really true. I meant every single fucking word of it, and no, I won't take it back.
That's it. Innocently, you changed me a lot. For better, I assume.
Well, I've got bit "way too into" you, I guess you can tell already, but I'm doing my best not to let it grow absurdily (a secret: I'm failing badly!) Not because you're not worth it but because I understand and I acknowledge that people's lives run in different directions pretty much 90% of the time (sadly).
I never realy wanted it to grow roots.
But just as mother nature, feelings grow kinda wild.
Sort of.
I can't help myself regarding the person you are. For real... I love what you have inside the shell.
I know I keep saying I wanna punch you in the face, but it's just because you are one of the most amazing, interesting, kind, adorable, smart yet innocent creatures I've had the pleasure to meet.
So, I just can't ignore it...
And I like deep dark lakes anyhow.
You asked me to explain why did I felt you as a "deep, dark, still lake"...
Well, it's been 2 hours I'm facing this page trying to let it out. Not happening so far.
Whatever (whenever) I write down here, it's not more than a merely thanks and a "shallow" explanation. This is definitely not a love letter or whatever you want to name it. So, no need to freak out over this little piece of paper.
No drama.
No bullshit.
06/05:
Don't get me wrong, and don't get full of yourself with what I'm about to say. We pass through people's lives, when we leave, we leave something for them. Maybe just nice memories, lessons, or even a part of ourselves in few cases. I'm not sure which case would be applicable once you're gone, but I will find out at some point.
I was really fucked up when we've met.
I mean, really, deeply fucked up. I was a completely mess, and I'm not ashamed about it.
Besides making me a stoner (haha, jokes aside), you made me realize a lot about who I am. That's not so directly connected to the YOU as a person, but somehow I found my answers here and there. Somehow I could see myself and all my shit from a different perspective, through your eyes I say.
I always, since the very first time, had good times with you. And to be really honest here, it helped me a lot to actually let go of things I know I would be fighting over until this very day. Call me dumb, or... whatever you want, but damn! You helped me a lot so far. In different ways.
To name a thing, that I find very important - perhaps the most important one, you got me even closer to my spirituality, that was asleep for couple of years. Influence, maybe? Well, I'm not even close to your practices, and maybe will never walk the same path as you... But meeting you back in November, was crucial for me to slowly get back.
And I'm honestly thankful for it.
Anyhow, back to the explanation, making it as simple as possible: unknowingly, you helped me go through some ghosts of mine. And to be very honest with you, babe, I realized that not long ago. That's why the lake. An isolated and peaceful lake in the middle of the chaos I was facing back then. More than anything, I love the person I am when I'm around you, and this proves to myself that every single word I've said to you so far is really true. I meant every single fucking word of it, and no, I won't take it back.
That's it. Innocently, you changed me a lot. For better, I assume.
Well, I've got bit "way too into" you, I guess you can tell already, but I'm doing my best not to let it grow absurdily (a secret: I'm failing badly!) Not because you're not worth it but because I understand and I acknowledge that people's lives run in different directions pretty much 90% of the time (sadly).
I never realy wanted it to grow roots.
But just as mother nature, feelings grow kinda wild.
Sort of.
I can't help myself regarding the person you are. For real... I love what you have inside the shell.
I know I keep saying I wanna punch you in the face, but it's just because you are one of the most amazing, interesting, kind, adorable, smart yet innocent creatures I've had the pleasure to meet.
So, I just can't ignore it...
And I like deep dark lakes anyhow.
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